I am 47 years old, and yet I have this feeling that I have not truly uncovered or discovered what I need to bring to this life. I feel a desire to serve my fellow human beings in a way that matters.
I am not sure, but this might not be such a unique discomfort. I bet there are many people who feel this way.
Years ago (end of 2013 into 2014) I went through this phase of seeing 911 everywhere. I was (and still is) a trader who would look at the charts and the futures I was trading would be at 44,911, right as I looked at my screen. The next day, I would see it at 45,911. Or, I would look at my watch at exactly 9:11.
I saw 911 in telephone numbers, on car registration numbers, and on billboards. It drove me nuts, and I could find no explanation for it.
Eventually, in January 2015, I saw a Facebook post that explained the number 11:11 — which I also started seeing too regularly eventually. The post author offered an explanation that I deeply resonated with. Finally, something made sense. I started following this lady — Elizabeth Peru. I subscribed to her regular newsletter, called the Tip Off.
Inside the membership area was a Numerology guide. This piqued my interest and I started looking into numerology. I have always been fascinated by numbers, and strong mathematically. I studied Actuarial Science, and I still work in this field today. So numbers were my thing and I studied Numerology with some gusto.
Much to my amazement I discovered that my Life Path numbers was a 9 and my Destiny number was an 11. And then the years of signs made sense. The Universe / God / my guides were preparing me for the moment of me discovering the mission I am on. And it was not a simple little mission…. It is not something that I could just go and implement over a weekend. It is a deep and complex message that I have grappled with for nearly a decade.
I also had to make peace with what I learned and accept it. I can say honestly that I have tried to run away from this mission at times — much like Jonah tried to avoid going to Nineveh. I was not swallowed by a whale, but I did experience evidence that I was living off mission.
(Please don’t let the bible reference make you think I am Christian or this is a Christian website. It is not.)
So, what I will now share with you is an excerpt from the numerology report that made the most sense to me. It is copyrighted by Hans Decoz. I own software that can generate these reports, so please reach out to me if you are curious and would like to receive such a report for yourself.
Dries, yours is the most highly charged Expression number of all. You are like a lightning rod, attracting powerful ideas, intuitions, and even psychic information like unpredictable bolts.
You are a powerful presence without any awareness on your part of having personal power. You are a channel for higher vibrations. But in order to be emotionally and psychologically at peace, you must learn to control that flow of energy. You possess a bridge between the unconscious and the conscious. The trouble is that the unconscious is an infinite resource, while consciousness by definition is a limited arena. The two are therefore at odds until they can learn to live in harmony with each other. This is where control comes in. Until you are able to control the flow of energy from this infinite source, you may feel like a victim of its whimsy, thrown about by emotional turmoil and nervous tensions.
Whether you know it or not, you possess great power within your being. You were born with this power in a latent state, but on some level you were aware of it. Early in life, this power manifested itself as awkwardness and a discomfort inside of you. Your self image has always been one of contradictory extremes: on one hand you sensed your uniqueness and potential; on the other you may have felt insecure and perhaps even inferior.
Apart from being clearly spiritually guided by what I have come to believe over the years to be my Angelic Guide (or Guiding Angel), I am not aware of any great power that I can use to use to serve humanity.
However, from what I am currently learning intuitively, this has something to do with inner life energy or energy work. So, for now, the focus of my writing here will be exploring energy, healing, and intuition. I am currently studying and reading various sources of information relating to this — Reiki, Qi Gong, YoQi, energy codes, energy healing, etc. I am hoping and praying that my gifts become clear to me as I go.
I’ll keep you posted!